Trying too hard... to even smile.

I know it is a late post. LOL.
Happy birthday Glenys and Renee! ;D






































I'm trying very hard to be myself.
But my esteem is pulling me down.
I'm not supposed to be like this.
Suddenly I miss Tootie a lot..
And my Nicole Jie...
I wished I could still be in retail.
Mayb I would have time for them?
So long since we last met,
but I(that me now) most probably
don't know what to tell them
how to start convers with them.
ARGH.

This low-confidence me is not Zombie.
It's Tan Xiu Ting Stephanie.
I wanna be Zombie..

But when I talk, I feel I'm talking too much...
Am I useless or even worse..? OMG.